Count it all Joy!

Friday, 30 October 2009

  • Just another battle.


    You can see this doubt is shaking me again
    And all this fear has begun a war inside
    It feels like its breaking through
    All the trust I thought I had for You
    It's plundering my heart
    And pillaging my joy
    All my walls are broken down
    All my streets deserted now
    There's nothing left here for me
    And I'm so hungry, Jesus, please,
    Would You fill me back up again with Your peace

    Still my heart...
    Remind me of Your faithfulness again
    Show me where You have always been
    Cause if I still have You, Jesus
    Then I still have Joy
    If my heart is broken
    I will still have a voice
    So still my heart
    Teach me Jesus, how to sing,
    Show me how to praise You
    Like I'm not scared of anything.

Friday, 21 August 2009

  • Invincible, is who You are.


    We are broken today, Lord,
    But Strength is in Your Name.
    Jesus.
    Jehovah.
    Rock.
    Shelter.
    Unbreakable.
    We don't understand, God,
    But Peace is who You are.
    Exceeding everything we try 
    To wrap our minds around.
    Don't you see we're about to drown?
    But no,
    You walked upon these waters.
    Master.
    Merciful.
    Mighty.
    Emmanuel.
    God with us.
    God above us.
    God below us.
    God greater.
    God higher.
    God immeasurable.
    God unstoppable.
    Invincible, is who You are,
    Redeeming us,
    Restoring us,
    Reminding us,
    That You're still on the throne.

Sunday, 16 August 2009

  • All the world is waiting for the sun.


    I didn't know it was possible to be so frustrated about so many different things in one day. 

    But I guess,

    -that things can't always happen the way I'd like them too

    -that people won't always think the way I wish they would

    -and that I don't understand why I always fail at the simplest things. I have a habit of letting situations and other people steal my joy. It's a good thing tomorrow starts a new week. I hope it's incredibly more different than the last.

    And I hope I trust God more this week.

Tuesday, 04 August 2009

  • Psalm 61:2


    I keep on stumbling and falling again
    I keep on hearing your words in my head
    Your heart is a force 
    Trying to pull me back in
    And I try to keep running 
    Can't let despondency win

    I keep running to Jesus
    Keep holding to the rock
    This all hurts like hell
    But He bore hell on the Cross

    What do you do with a love 
    That's controlled you, consumed you
    You still leave me breathless 
    But I'm trying to learn
    To breathe out and breathe in
    And then back out again 

    And to keep running to Jesus
    Just to keep holding on
    They say it all just takes time
    Before you stop feeling so lost

    But He provides the Joy to overcome
    The strength to start a new day
    He's the one who gives and takes away
    I'll lean on Him and praise His name
    And wait.

Saturday, 25 July 2009

  • But I Will Praise Him.


    [I hear the Savior say, thy strength indeed is small
    Child of weakness, watch and pray, find in Me thine all in all.]

    You are my strength when I am weak
    You are the treasure that I seek
    You are my all in all
    Seeking You as a precious jewel
    Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
    You are my all in all

    Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
    Rising up again I bless Your name
    You are my all in all
    When I fall down You pick me up
    When I am dry You fill my cup
    You are my all in all

    Jesus, Lamb of God
    Worthy is Your name.

    It's been a rough week. For me, for people I know, and maybe for you. Right now I'm at a stand still. I don't know what to do, and there's nothing I can do. I'm simply waiting on God. I'm truthfully a little depressed, and sad, and more than confused. But I know when my heart is overwhelmed and I'm feeling low, Psalm 61 says to go the the Rock that is higher than I. Cry to Him, talk to Him, seek Him, and praise Him. I like that Newsboys song:

    "I've had questions, without answers
    I've known sorrow, I have known pain
    But there's one thing, that I'll cling to
    You are faithful, Jesus You're true

    When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
    When pain surrounds, I'll call You Healer
    When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

    In the lone hour of my sorrow
    Through the darkest night of my soul
    You surround me and sustain me
    My defender, forevermore

    And I will praise You, I will praise You
    When the tears fall, still I will sing to You
    And I will praise You, Jesus praise You
    Through the suffering still I will sing"

    I'm confused, 
    But I will praise Him for a functional mind.

    I'm super scared,
    But I will praise Him for His Word that calms me.

    My heart is breaking,
    But I will praise Him that I still have the ability to feel compassion, and to love.

    I might be tired,
    But I will praise Him for a mom who buys me goldfish crackers and Dr. Pepper to cheer me up. ^^

    I will praise Him for smiles and bright green toenail polish and pianos and lotion.

    I will praise Him for my job, my computer, my phone, for lightbulbs, for our refridgerator, for comfy hoodies, and for that crazy looking little tree that's in our front yard. 

    I will praise Him!

    I will praise Thee, O Lord, with my whole heart; I will shew forth all Thy marvellous works.
    Psalm 9:1

    praise-1.jpg praise the Lord image by lilmissmontana

Wednesday, 15 July 2009

  • Happiness is a bright green crayon.


    So is...

    ♥Biscuits with honey!
    ♥Watching chick flicks with your mom
    ♥Laughing at each other for tearing up at sad parts
    ♥Tiny cinnamon donuts with milk
    ♥Taking pictures of random colorful objects
    ♥Hearing your nephew tell you what a cow and duck say. "Moo!" and "Ack!"
    ♥Striped toesocks! Teehee
    ♥A song that you can play over and over and never get tired of it.
    ♥Contests of how long you can stand on the super-hot pavement
    ♥Knowing someone loves you even if you'll never be able to fully figure out why.



Wednesday, 01 July 2009

  • Man of Sorrows.


    I suppose that without even being conscious of it, I get this mindset of "God is going to slap me and tell me I'm stupid and take away everything I want and replace it with something that's 'better' that I'll have to learn to like and accept." 

    Tonight things just began to overwhelm me like they do alot when I pray. When they do I sometimes just sit there for a bit. I just didn't want to tell God how much I want something...and how much I'm scared of having my heart ripped out because I don't want to hear "It's okay, if not this I'll have something even better." So I just sat there a while. I dislike crying but it just happens sometimes. I guess it's okay though, because even Jesus cried sometimes when He prayed.

    But I sat there, and I'm not quite sure if I thought of it or if He was actually talking to me. But I realized that, God doesn't do things like that. He's not there just waiting to shoot down my wants and dreams and force His will. He loves me. Really loves me. He knows exactly how much things do and might hurt. He knows how it feels. He is the one who best knows how our hearts and emotions work and how to comfort us.  

    "He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted."  Isaiah 53:3-4

    It's nothing intelligent or brilliant...just a reminder to myself.

Monday, 29 June 2009

  • Affirmation


    "I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
    I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
    I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
    I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
    I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
    I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
    I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
    I believe in Love surviving death into eternity"


Thursday, 11 June 2009

  • Overwhelmed.

    Why art thou cast down, O my soul? 
    And why art thou disquieted within me?
    Hope in God: for I shall yet praise Him, 
    Who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
    Psalm 43:5

    From the end of the earth will I cry unto Thee, 
    when my heart is overwhelmed: 
    lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.
    Psalm 61:2

Monday, 01 June 2009

  • Thoughts from Psalm 23.


    (Notes from church tonight, and a few of my thoughts.)

    "The Lord is my shepherd."
    Jehovah-Rohi- because the Lord is my Shepherd. He leads me, He picks me up when I am broken, and my heart never leaves His hands.

    "I shall not want."
    Jehovah-Jireh- because the Lord will provide...everything I need. Even the strength and joy to make it through a frustrating battle.

    "    He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters."
    Jehovah-Shalom- because the Lord is my peace. He replaces my frustration with peace.

    "    He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake."
    Jehovah-Tsidkenu- because the Lord is my Righteousness. He has already fought my battles for me, and won.

    "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."
    Jehovah-Nissi- because the Lord is my banner. I will lift His name high, because He holds me up. He always carries the the heaviest end of my load.

    "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over."
    Jehovah-Rophe- because the Lord is my Healer. He heals me when I am broken...when my heart is wounded.

    "    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."
    Jehovah-Shammah- because the Lord is ever present with me. Always here, always there. No matter what.


    Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
    and lean not unto thine own understanding.
    In all thy ways acknowledge Him,
    and He shall direct thy paths.
    Proverbs 3:5-6


    Trust your Jehovah.


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